Monday, April 21, 2008

phantom dreams


I had two dreams about the x-girlfriend this week. Not sure why, but they were kinda weird. In both I broke up her relationship to get back together with her. I woke up in that state not knowing if it was a dream or reality. If you would ask me the question" Is it better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all".... that's easy...to never have loved....it's less painful.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

awake 89 hours and counting.... (not counting microsleep).


I feel like I have so much to write about...alas it is also crunch time at Ball State University, so I'm trying to keep my head above water. So, it's six in the afternoon on a Thursday and I am chillen in my office, perplexed at the fact that I'm not tired. Of course that in itself is not a big deal, but sine I haven't slept the past three nights (not a badge of courage, but a statement of shame), I'm surprised I'm still standing. I once did this same thing in undergrad, and once I laid down I crashed for 12 hours. So why am I not tired now? Most people that I know make a huge deal about how important sleep is. While I may disagree, I do acknowledged when I don't sleep, I often find myself accidental sleeping in pass class. Not a good idea when you have Spanish 101 every morning (which is why I have a flippen D in that class, argh...). Buneos Noches.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Church History Quiz

A Church History Quiz relating to important doctrinal issues in scripture... I love this kinds of stuff, it makes me realize how much more I need to explore the history of what I believe. Let's see how much you know, I got a 16 out of 23: see if you can do better. Feel free to post your score :). Answer each question below either true or false. Answers are found in previous post.

Church History Quiz
1. Emperor Constantine launched one of the most ruthless campaigns to uproot Christianity

2. The Gnostics were an ancient sect that emphasized the physical over the spiritual

3. Pelagianism was condemned by more church councils than any other heresy in church history

4. Pelagius taught that St. Augustine's doctrine of grace would lead inevitably to moral apathy

5. Arianism was the belief that Christ only appeared to have a human body

6. Orthodox Christians deny the title "Mother of God" as being applicable to Mary, the mother of Jesus

7. The Middle Ages were fairly calm in terms of heresy, due to the strength of Christendom

8. Martin Luther was the first reformer to attack the popularity of Pelagian works-righteousness in the church

9. Jerome Savonarola, in the 15th c., brought morality back to Florence and was, therefore, a precursor to the Reformation itself

10. Erasmus, a Renaissance humanist, was a major obstacle in Luther's breakthrough to understanding the Gospel

11. Martin Luther's great discovery was that the only way a sinner is acceptable to God is if the grace of God alone, by the power of the Holy Spirit, transforms the sinner into a godly Christian

12. The Reformers discovered that God doesn't expect us to be perfect, but that he forgives and accepts us on the basis of our love for him even though we still sin

13. John Calvin believed that the Old Testament law should govern modern nations and that is why he had a little girl stoned to death and had Servetus burned at the stake

14. Luther and Calvin believed that the main purpose of Holy Communion is to remember what Christ did for us and to commit ourselves anew to serving him

15. The Anabaptists were a group of English missionaries who helped advance the Reformation

16. At the Council of Trent Rome anathematized the Gospel

17. The Puritans were a group of English Arminians who sought to bring in the kingdom of God by prohibiting alcohol and banning the theater

18. Calvinists are the only Protestants who believe in unconditional election--that is, the doctrine that God elected sinners to be saved before the creation of the world apart from anything on their part, including foreseen faith

19. The position of the Roman Catholic Church and Arminianism is identical on the main questions of justification and sanctification

20. Pietism was a movement of mainly German and Dutch Protestants who wanted to emphasize the heart over doctrine

21. Modern liberalism arose out of a desire to emphasize Christianity as an intellectual philosophical system rather than a way of life and personal relationship with Christ
system rather than a way of life and personal relationship with Christ

22. The doctrine of conversion and the experience of being born again is central to historic evangelical Christianity

23. The most dominant view of end-times throughout church history has been the Rapture of the church prior to the Tribulation and the personal return of Christ to establish his millennial reign on the earth
false

Answers to Church History Quiz... see latter post above

To See Answers, hold down left clicker and drag mouse over text, and it will appear

1. FALSE - Galerius was the last of the persecutors and when he died in 311, Constantine launched the building of "Christendom"
2. FALSE - Just the opposite, they taught that matter is evil and spirit is good
3. TRUE
4. TRUE - Pelagius denied original sin and believed that all one needed to do to be saved was to follow Christ instead of Satan
5. FALSE - That's Docetism, an offshoot of Gnosticism; Arianism held just the opposite: Christ was merely a man, not the God-Man
6. FALSE - The Church insisted that the child Mary carried in her womb was no less than God himself. Thus, the title was calculated to defend the divinity of Christ. If she was not the mother of God, of whom was she the mother? Jesus. But was Jesus not God? They did not infer any notion of her being the mother of Christ according to his deity, of course, but those [like Nestorius] who wished to separate Christ's divine and human nature were warned against this by the title
7. FALSE - The period saw the rise of scores of sects, heresies, and schisms especially in the West
8. FALSE - Thomas Bradwardine, 14th c. archbishop of Canterbury; Johann von Staupitz, Luther's mentor, and the Waldensians, Wycliffe--14th c., Hus--15th c., were opponents of what Bradwardine referred to as "the new Pelagians"
9. FALSE - The Reformation was a recovery of the Gospel, not a moral crusade
10. FALSE - It is said that he "laid the egg that Luther hatched," by recovering the meaning of the key Greek words for "justification," "repentance," from the perversions of the Latin Vulgate
11. FALSE - Rome said that justification was due entirely to God's grace transforming the believer, while the Reformers insisted that justification, unlike sanctification, was a legal declaration, not a spiritual or moral transformation, even though the latter always follows
12. FALSE - They knew that God demanded perfect righteousness, and that's why justification is a perfect righteousness imputed rather than an infused righteousness or ability to pursue righteousness
13. FALSE - Calvin never had a girl stoned and actually pleaded with the city officials not to burn Servetus. He did not believe that O.T. civil law is applicable to modern nations, as he states in the Institutes
14. FALSE - Although they held different views, both believed in the "Real Presence" of Christ in Communion and denied that it was a mere memorial
15. FALSE - They formed the "Radical Reformation," believing that Protestants [Lutherans and Reformed] didn't go far enough in condemning Romanism [viz., infant baptism, the creeds, etc.] and that they denied that the Spirit is above and speaks apart from the Word. Many Anabaptists taught unorthodox doctrines, including Menno Simons' denial of Christ's true humanity, and embraced works-righteousness
16. TRUE - The Council of Trent of the Roman Catholic Church officially condemned the doctrine of justification by faith alone and its related teachings.

17. FALSE - They were English Calvinists who wanted to purify worship from what they believed to be persistent superstitions. Against their popular image, they actually were at the forefront of worldly affairs, including the arts, literature, science, exploration, and politics. See Joseph Butler's Theatre and the Crisis (Cambridge) and Leland Ryken's The Worldly Saints (Zondervan), for starters
18. FALSE - Unconditional election is the classical position of both the Roman Catholic and the major Protestant communions that came directly out of the Reformation
19. TRUE - Arminians traditionally deny the Protestant formula of justification [i.e., "justification by grace alone through faith alone because of Christ alone"] and argue that faith itself is the ground [rather than instrument] of justification. Further, they see justification as a process of being conformed to Christ
20. TRUE - Originally, they simply wanted to recover the union of doctrine and life, but the movement ended up creating anti-intellectualism, legalism and a cynical view of the institutional church
21. FALSE - Actually, its source was pietism and the desire to locate religion in a "spiritual" realm that would be safe from what the assault of the critics. Even though Christ may not have been raised in real human history, "he lives within my heart."
22. FALSE - Historic Protestantism focuses on the objective work of Christ for sinners rather than on the subjective work of Christ within sinners, while affirming and defending both
23. FALSE - The Dispensational scheme, including the idea of the Rapture, arose in the nineteenth century for the first time

Sunday, April 06, 2008

the problem in pleasure...

Lately I have found a number of things in my life I have not wanted to part with because they mean too much to me. This serves as a wake up call that I may be ripe for an enslaving destructive dependency… if left unchallenged, deception and denial will spread and blind my heart, and this deception will allow my addictions to gain their foothold. If the problem is unchecked, addictions can destroy my capacity for self control. So why do I engage in such behavior? Because it turn my lows into temporary highs, providing doses of relief that I control. All are ways that I find to relieve pain or helplessness or boredom.
The realty is that its promise of freedom is really a house of mirrors that traps me with little hope of escape, the effects are always self destructive. Of course I would quit if I could on my own, but I have become a slave to my own desires, and often I believe I deserve the relief and power my addiction provides.
Don’t get me wrong, the desire to feel good is not unhealthy, but having a belief that one needs relief “NOW” regardless is a trap leading to enslavement in a destructive dependency. When feeling good becomes more important to a person then doing good, loving others, or knowing God, they are drifting on the waves of addicted. A need for relief does not have to drive us into arms of addiction. The question I need to ask myself is am I willing to feel the inescapable pains and valleys in my life? The alternative is committing to immediate relief and control. Ravi Zacharias reminds me that “All pleasure cost (something). For legitimate you pay the price before pleasure. For illegitimate you pay the price after pleasure.”

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

The parodox of external freedom vs. internal freedom

For those who noticed that I decided to change the name of my blog, I felt that the previous name didn’t always fit with my posting. Adam Thada (by his tote bags for a good cause) was right to put a link to my blog with the words “unpredictable”. My thoughts and postings are often erratic. Granted it sucks if you’re a reader… which is probably why I write this more for my therapeutic value.

On a different note, I was at the funeral for my great aunt last week. First let me metion that when you are stating that someone has been cremated, it is apparently inappropriate to use the statement “ …they burned her.” Apparently it is disturbing to the listener and implies she was alive during the ordeal…. now I know. I define this as a “Nateism”. I am defining the word “Nateism” as a statement where the “use of one’s wording falls humorously far from its intended meaning”.

Moving along, there were two things that stuck out to me in the freezing cold of that cloudy morning (seriously, who has a funeral at 10:00 am?) First, the highlights of her eulogy were the places she had visited (These being Las Vegas, and whale watching in California). I found it odd that they were mentioned in such a way that led us twenty in attendance to assume they were the most important aspects of her life. Not to knock anyone’s death speech, but the last words for a parting loved one shouldn’t include the vacations they attended; especially when contrasted with scripture. Predictably the scripture wasn’t Luke 6:9.
The second was the revelation that my great aunt was in World War II, not on the front lines per say but ever bit as important (honestly, I don’t know what she did). There was a gun salute at her funeral, a practice that is common with Veterans who served in the War. As the old men with raisin like features hoisted their guns in the air and let of a piercing sound in unison, I was reminded of the fact that we as Americans are strong believers in external freedoms. Freedom of speech, freedom of the press; it seems that many controversial issues deal with freedoms. Freedom to have an abortion, freedom to have a gun, these are just a few that come to mind. Yet, why is it we are less enthusiastic when our internal freedoms are in jeopardy. 1 Corinthians 6:12 states “Everything is permissible, but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible, but I will not be mastered by anything”. I wonder if the average person realizes that the decisions they make, when made repeatedly, often become habitual responses. Something so simple as watching TV or checking facebook to something more devious like pornography or smoking; each of these things may threaten our freedom. Yet, we welcome these till the point where they become addictions, fooling ourselves that we are as in complete control of the situation. We may be in control, but there is a line when choice becomes habit, when habit becomes character, and when character becomes destiny.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

what is beautiful?


Pretty isn't beautiful, Mother.
Pretty is what changes...
What the eye arranges
is what is beautiful! - Stephen Sondheim, Sunday in the Park with George