Wisdom from Lewis

“The Christian way is different: harder, and easier. Christ says, ‘Give me All. I don’t want so much of your time and so much of your money and so much of your work: I want you. I have not come to torment your natural self, but to kill it. No half-measures are any good. I don’t want to cut off a branch here and a branch there, I want to have the whole tree down. Hand over the whole natural self, all the desires which you think innocent as well as the ones you think wicked- the whole outfit. I will give you a new self instead. In fact, I will give you Myself: my own will shall become yours.’” –C.S. Lewis

What are some of the reasons I fear giving my life completely to God? Perhaps because I want this life to be easy, and I know when I give it away to God it could become hard. I am lazy, and laziness means more work in the long run. Which areas of my life am I most reluctant to surrender to God? Currently it is my time and my eyes. I pour anything in that I want to, not contemplating on the consequences of such actions. In what ways have I experienced the heavy burden of trying to remain in control of my life? I don’t want to surrender to God every morning, and now I have come to the point where I feel I am faking Christianity. I need to return to the place where I diverged from my Heavenly Father, and ask for forgiveness and seek restoration.